We have been living in Kampen for exactly 6 months. 6 months ago today, we arrived bleary-eyed, excited, nervous, home-sick, ready. Ready to get this adventure started and move another step closer to our finishing goal. I can scarcely believe that we have been living in a foreign country for half of a year. 5 years ago, we had just found out that we would be leaving our beloved city of Seattle to move across the country, to what seemed like the most foreign place I would ever find myself living; New Jersey. Who would have thought that the doors would continue to open and send us to warm and sunny Pasadena, and then clear across the globe to the Netherlands? There is a reason, when I started this blog 5 years ago, that I titled it, "Call Us Crazy." Our adventure has been crazy, but the end goal is not, and we are just beginning to see glimpses of what it looks like across that finish line.
As I have been reflecting upon where the last 5 years have brought us, I have also come to the realization (probably obvious to many of you, but I haven't exactly thought of it this way), that I have either been in school or working every year of my life until now. We could get into the discussion about how being a stay-at-home mom/homemaker is a full-time job, and yes, I agree with that. However, I am specifically referring to the concept of being expected somewhere; expected to report to someone for some reason. For the past 6 months, I guess I have been on a sabbatical of sorts, although I never knew I was asking for one. I have been blessed with the time to pour my energy and focus into my kids, my husband, my home and myself. It has been so wonderful to sort of dictate my own schedule day by day, around the minor details of Maddie's school and Geoffrey's nap time. However, this has also been somewhat of a struggle for me. I am an active, extroverted individual, who thrives on social circumstances and activity. Living in Kampen for the past 6 months has given me all sorts of time, and so much of it has been on my own.
Sometimes, if I'm being completely honest, doing the domestic homemaker "thing" has been a bit of a drag. I remember countless days of aching to just have some extra time on my hands to take care of things, big or little, around the house; countless moments of wanting to slow down time so I could do fun things with my kids without the constrictions of schedules and commitments; countless times of wishing I had a few hours to get my "creative juices" flowing with a craft. Now that I have these countless days and countless moments this year, I find myself twiddling my thumbs, saying, "What now? I've done absolutely everything I possibly can on my to-do list, but it's only 9:30 in the morning." Well, sometimes it might be 10:30... ;)
I'm caught wondering occasionally where the happy medium lies for me. I know my time here is slowly winding down and it will all be over before I realize what has happened. I'm desperately trying to find the place in each day where I have made something count. Really count, no matter how big or small. And additionally, I am also trying to open my eyes and not let things pass me by, even if I feel like time sometimes couldn't go any slower (so how could anything possibly pass me by, right?). Each day is a gift, whether I am in Kampen, teaching in a classroom in the suburbs, or walking down Main Street, USA in Disneyland. I am committed to living that truth out.
This morning, I took some pictures on my ride back from Maddie's school. My eyes were very open and have been struck once again with the beauty that lies just outside my door. This experience, this adventure, this season, is absolutely crazy. But, man. If I didn't live through the crazy, I would be missing out on so much. And for that, and this, I am grateful.
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| I can't make this scene up. It exists and I live here. |
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| The canal just outside of Maddie's school. |
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| This sight makes me very happy. |
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| We are on the cusp of springtime in the Netherlands. |
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| The building with the blue rooftop is Maddie's school. |
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| Sometimes, the grind of riding the bike everywhere, with loads of kids/stuff/groceries, in any kind of weather, every single day, can make it easy for me to lose sight of what is surrounding me. |
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| Yes, this is a duck. And yes, I found this beautiful today. |
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| This is taken from the main road that connects to our street. Down at the end of this canal is where Maddie's school is located. This is my most favorite canal in all of Kampen; from the above pictures, can't you see why? |
From the looks of things, I have a feeling the coming months are going to be nothing short of spectacular, and I'm ready.